Bloodlust

"Cherish everything right in front of you", well this words really hits me hard now, what is in front of me I barely can't reach out yet and I starting to miss her badly day by day. The feeling increases even I also don't know what I am thinking at the moment and the state of missing her, I don't think I can imagine myself.
Seeing that chance is right in front of me, I think I nearly blew it myself, never thought it could happen also in a split of time. I know let go any opportunity will be a waste to me, I even haven't dream of it is her. Well maybe I felt too lonely right now, just can study and aiming high for my exam.
Stopping by a while, thinking a lot nowadays, even I am sick, I also act strong, can't rest well. Think too much ? Worry on her ? Worry on study ? Don't get it .. no idea, no solution, first time suffer from this. Totally useless to think of anything except for her.
Chance only have once, get it or not depends on myself, putting down here to remind myself how stupid am I? Maybe once hurt before, not dare to move on from the shadow of losing someone.
By any chances, maybe really is fate, let me know some new friends , I can say I treat them as a best friends already, one day I will one by one introduce to you guys =)