Bloodlust

Sorry for a long time didn't update the blog, was facing final exam. It was quite tough, but I still will make it. That is because, there is someone that I wanted to be with most right now, although I don't want her to know anything right now, right here, because I was not too sure about all myself. The future right ahead for me, but still wanted to find the Miss Right to accompany me. I don't really know why I wanted one, maybe because I am quite lonely at here, or maybe is just a mere replacement of her, still yet confusing for me.
For her, maybe let her in the world of not knowing anything will be the best right now. Luckily for me, Granddaughter Nicole wake me up in the right place and right time, if not, I really don't know what I really am doing. Every of her words wake me up to think seriously on her. That what I decided on yesterday and tell everyone.
Weee, still got one more week left and I will be at Penang already. Can't wait to the day to come, sadly I still have one subject to go. Bahh forget it, I will continue work hard for it. To myself and a bit to her right now. I decided something that is outrages recently. =P It will remain unknown until the right time to tell everyone.
When there is love and hatred, I rather choose to be the one hurting you the most. I really don't want anything happen to you right now, even I do really fall right into your heart.
Cheers to keit and Nicole, so lovely already =D. Thanks mom, sis, martin and everyone that support me much until now. Wish I could have the courage to tell her what is in my heart, but no matter how, I think it will hurt her much also, and the future is very uncertain to me. When things come to very desperate and hopeless, I think is better to let her know, not right now.
Loving her right now so much =D shhhhhh ...