Bloodlust

Last week was a bit of outrages, but this week it was really totally not me, getting into so much trouble on studies and even worst, i still have the shadow of what my father told me, i really hates that he comes in and say, " I don't want you to have this, don't want you to write this on your net=.=" " really shock me out, this is a net, everyone have to write some own personal data to know more friends so outdated. The whole study things make me feel so pressure and the heat is beating inside my heart, totally lost control on Thursday night, with no one around to accompany me that night, it was a bit tough to survive, as the past few days i thought i can handle all the pressure in the study, but disappointing i could not do it very well. This week my heart starting to have some effect of pressure and stress, starting to have some painful beat, even make my muscle having the effect, OUCH that was hurt(it was really hurt just the same i have during my SPM) Thankfully got a good charming person(my wife)accompany me on Thursday night, really really thankful to her for wasting some of her time listen to what i going to say. After talking to her, i feel more relax and calm for a while, after chatting with her, what ever goes to my mind was so sweet. She really is an angel to me, everyday accompanying me even though she has her own trial exam, hope that she does well. Today, we talk back the past that we had together and the break out, and the late known truth makes me feel that she was suffering so hard from it, and i don't know even one thing, really touched by what she done, she don't want me to get hurt from what she have done. I understand that feel, it is really hard to handle, i really love you so much, Sharon.

There was a confusion happen too, Martin now got a new target, congrats him, first time ever see him change his heart except for W, no more W , now is Yvonne, i so grateful that he change his target, but something happen this week related to him and W. At first, W told me there is something wrong in her, i told her not to think so much on it and maybe she can forget about it, i really thought it was just study and results pressure only, but on Friday, i was shock that how come Martin know that there is problem on W, frankly speaking, i think that W does not want Martin to know anything about it, well, that day at noon, i talked to her, i ask her, " why you expose your problem to Martin ?? " but she didn't answer me anything, she just say, " you better don't tell anything that i told u to Martin. " . When i realize it, Martin already know what is going on, i wonder why W will let Martin know when she does so hate him so much now( what i think ). Today was the day they two decided things out, although i don't know what is the end results yet, but still hope that i no need to go back so fast to attend your wedding party.

Last night was talking to Mommy Alicia, she was so nice to me and her other 2 sons, that night, is just we two as Martin went to a waste money Prom Night by Inti, told him already waste money and energy. That moment, i know that she cares all the friends that surround her, she was a great mommy to have, even told me that Nicole my granddaughter was sick. She even care my wife too, so good girl, hard to find already, who ever have her as a girl friend and partner, really have to take good care of her if not, he will be haunted by Martin, Keit and ME !!! Mommy have a great smile to her instinct, she likes to laugh often, makes the family so warm =)

Well talking about my granddaughter, she also was a cute little girl to me now, she was a nice girl to talk to, always " Grandpa i want chocolate, please buy for me" , oh yeah chocolates, i wont forget it, don't worry granddaughter. Wednesday was talking to her i guess forget which date already, she lied to me said that she want to go and study, but then she was on the phone with Keit, oh my god, less 1 chocolate for you =). Then Friday i saw her, she just recover from her bad illness, alright, add back chocolate for you =), when i heard that she was sick, i really worry her, well she was the second girl that can make me so touched. That noon, i really was thinking " how was her, how was her, hopefully she is alright " =) worry too much, really feel that i am a old guy.