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The beginning of my story

by Nicholas on Nov.22, 2009, under

Love is a very complicated for each human being, even my one, my story starts 3 years ago, when i was 16, i met her, hean at msn while i was at my friend's house doing project, i added her. Whenever she was on, i always abandon all my gaming and come out to talk to her,because i feel that she was a kind friendly person. We can talk anything, even our secret also can be discuss, and she told me that she has a bf, who was my senior in my school. That time i was totally shock, i knew that guy was so heroic in my school, don't know how to describe him. Later, i heard that she was going to meet him, i got a bad feeling that he wont be able to show up, as i thought, i heard she said, he was not going to come. After that incident, i offer every help i can to her, to make sure that she was safe. Actually that time, there was some feeling towards her, but i don,t want to make her think that i want to chase her when she was in this condition, so i always keep the feeling in my heart until it was time i tell out
After a few months later, I remember that day when i chase her, it was so shocked, i decided myself to chase her, but a shocking way of chasing her was i have been question by 6 of her friends, weird weird opening, at the first thought, i really think that long distance love is very hard to maintain, that time, i was only 16 and my usage of computer and hp had been limited, i was kinda tough to go on, but the relationship maintain for quite a long time. While months passed by, the relationship bond become stronger and stronger. After a year of our relationship, we met each other.
The very first day was a shocking one, when i saw her the very first time, she look to me i felt like why this girl so attracting me towards her. We have an enjoyable trip that time in overall, having a sweet memory on that day, i still remember it to now. After that disaster came as something goes wrong to our relationship and she offers for a break up, i was very dejected and sad, i try to calm down myself for a few months. After that, i really find a replacement , but after i going to approach to a girl with the love, i feel in my heart, there was a force that pushing me towards her again, i know that i still thinking of her, miss her so much, i thought really let her go already, but it all opposite of my thinking. aikss!! At the first time, i was really not thinking that i will be back to her, i give it a go, but the results was a bit of disappointed at the first time, i know that she has a bf that time too, so I would not force her so much too.
After last year end, i was in kl, i called her out to meet her for the last time, this time the meeting was between two very good friends, because i want to leave for study already, i really wanted to see her, see how was she doing. When i finally met her, the feeling all came back, really cant control the feeling, but then i didn't have the guts to tell her the feelings, i scare she reject me and i will feel sad again. After the meeting, i told her through text that what i feel towards her, but surprisingly she was not mad about it, also accepting me back, i do promise her a lot of things after the second time we being back together, because i was not around by her side by then, i so miss u so much my darling i love u so much sze hean !!!!
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  • Hong CN

    Nic, there is no right or wrong instruction to handle love affair. No one able to stop you from pulling it out except yourself.

    Don't blame your rational mind unable to lead you the way. Enjoy this moment of sweet and sour :-) This is your unique experience of your life :-)

    Take good care of course!

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