Bloodlust

Love is a very complicated for each human being, even my one, my story starts 3 years ago, when i was 16, i met her, hean at msn while i was at my friend's house doing project, i added her. Whenever she was on, i always abandon all my gaming and come out to talk to her,because i feel that she was a kind friendly person. We can talk anything, even our secret also can be discuss, and she told me that she has a bf, who was my senior in my school. That time i was totally shock, i knew that guy was so heroic in my school, don't know how to describe him. Later, i heard that she was going to meet him, i got a bad feeling that he wont be able to show up, as i thought, i heard she said, he was not going to come. After that incident, i offer every help i can to her, to make sure that she was safe. Actually that time, there was some feeling towards her, but i don,t want to make her think that i want to chase her when she was in this condition, so i always keep the feeling in my heart until it was time i tell out
After a few months later, I remember that day when i chase her, it was so shocked, i decided myself to chase her, but a shocking way of chasing her was i have been question by 6 of her friends, weird weird opening, at the first thought, i really think that long distance love is very hard to maintain, that time, i was only 16 and my usage of computer and hp had been limited, i was kinda tough to go on, but the relationship maintain for quite a long time. While months passed by, the relationship bond become stronger and stronger. After a year of our relationship, we met each other.
The very first day was a shocking one, when i saw her the very first time, she look to me i felt like why this girl so attracting me towards her. We have an enjoyable trip that time in overall, having a sweet memory on that day, i still remember it to now. After that disaster came as something goes wrong to our relationship and she offers for a break up, i was very dejected and sad, i try to calm down myself for a few months. After that, i really find a replacement , but after i going to approach to a girl with the love, i feel in my heart, there was a force that pushing me towards her again, i know that i still thinking of her, miss her so much, i thought really let her go already, but it all opposite of my thinking. aikss!! At the first time, i was really not thinking that i will be back to her, i give it a go, but the results was a bit of disappointed at the first time, i know that she has a bf that time too, so I would not force her so much too.
After last year end, i was in kl, i called her out to meet her for the last time, this time the meeting was between two very good friends, because i want to leave for study already, i really wanted to see her, see how was she doing. When i finally met her, the feeling all came back, really cant control the feeling, but then i didn't have the guts to tell her the feelings, i scare she reject me and i will feel sad again. After the meeting, i told her through text that what i feel towards her, but surprisingly she was not mad about it, also accepting me back, i do promise her a lot of things after the second time we being back together, because i was not around by her side by then, i so miss u so much my darling i love u so much sze hean !!!!